What is your biggest hope?

Hello everyone.
I am an ordinary girl who has the ambition to become a photographer.
I love photography, because I love preserving memories with a simple "click". It 'amazing how memories can last. The subtle essence of a memory: great, isn't it?
For the rest I'm a student, I like video games and the rain. I love the rain and the smell, I think it's one of the most beautiful things that God ever created.
No, not a believer, I'm agnostic.
Writing, singing and poetry are the things that fascinate me, I feel very attracted to these arts. Knowing how to play with words to create an impression is something that few people ever do.
I have a lot of scars, everywhere. They always remind me how I feel, because I hate myself. Sometimes I feel alone, I don't know how to explain that sensation. Is a Mix of afraid, hungry and despair.
I'm fat and ugly, but I hope for a better future; maybe I will be forever ugly, but I wish something beautiful my life.
That said, see you soon.
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